We have been together for a very long time…the days waxed into years and still you are here with me. My only true companion? No. Not anymore…
I met The River. It caresses my soul with it’s song…the song against a shore…begging for me to join it forever more.
You abandoned me, Ana. I cannot hear your voice anymore — is it just too loud to hear you — OR.DID.YOU.LEAVE?
It is very loud, here. Sleep is elusive and the chaos is my only friend. That is why The River beckoned — it sensed my loneliness…and my longing.
I will join it soon — but for now, I will visit. Please don’t hate me, Ana, for giving up on you — but, after all you gave up on me first. I was not strong enough to remain your friend.
The River has promised to carry me. It promises rest. It has been hard to trust it — but it’s words are sweet and sultry — they lull me closer…closer…
Just a little while longer —