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A Place Called Home

Those who know me well, know that I’m from a place I fondly call: “My Beloved, Virginia.” I miss Virginia so much that at times my heart aches. There are so many things engraved on my soul that I long for each day and miss even more with each day that passes, as I’m away. I miss Virginia when the daffodils tease, as they reach for the sun through the snow begging for Spring to join them in their early blooms. Then as the snow finally melts away and the grass begins to share it’s lovely carpet of green climbing up through the mud left behind by that melting snow — with a promise that life will begin anew — the dogwoods start budding and the cardinals return to build their nests and prepare to raise their young.

As Spring marches forward, the hot lazy days of summer come in and families start gathering for reunions to meet the newest members of the family and treasure, once again, time with those who joined years ago. I remember running and playing with cousins who were as close to me as brothers and sisters and all the fun we had playing in the fields and cooling off in the lake at the end of a hot summer day, which never ended without us running through the dark with mason jars collecting fire flies to light our way home. There was always a bottomless glass of iced tea, watermelon picked straight from the garden and Pappaw threatening to chew our ears off, as we squealed with glee, and Mammaw pretending to be worried that he might actually succeed. How I long for one more summer to spend my time between Grandma’s house and Pappaw and Mammaw’s house where I was promised to be spoiled with all the pure, Virginia love that could be given.

When the sun set and summer finally gave into the cooler weather of fall, the leaves began to turn every color of red, yellow, umber and finally brown as they let loose of the trees so that we could gather them into what seemed like giant mountains. We would spend hours raking and then what seemed like seconds to enjoy diving, jumping and hiding beneath them. With the final motivation from Momma and Daddy, telling us it was time to clean them up, we raked as hard as we could to the ditch so Daddy could burn them. I remember the smell and the flecks of ash as it floated away with a final “goodbye.” Suddenly, it seemed, as if magically, Thanksgiving would come and oh, how grateful we truly were to grow up in a place that assured us of love.

With the smell of the turkey fading away and the fragrance of pine and cinnamon filling the air, Christmas was ushered in to give us the gift of Redemption and Salvation born of a virgin, Mary, found lying in a manger, in a little town so far from a place named after another virgin, Elizabeth, than our little minds could fathom. We bowed are hearts and praised God for those gifts. The snow fell and we found once again we had come full circle in my beloved Virginia.

When someone asks where I’m from, my thoughts with a lifetime of memories saunter through my mind much like the James River saunters through my homeland and I proudly say, “my home is Virginia.” For me, Virginia means home. Another Virginian felt the same way and he described home this way:

“At night across the mountains when darkness falls, and the winds sweep down out of the hollows, the wild things with their shiny eyes come to the edge of the clearing. At such an hour, the house seems safe and warm. An island of light and love in a sea of darkness. At such an hour the word home must have come into being. Dreamed up by some creature that never knew a home. In his yearning there must have come to mind the vision of a mother’s face, a father’s deep voice, the aroma of fresh baked bread, sunshine in a window, the muted sounds of rain on a roof, the sigh of death, the cry of a new born babe and voices calling good night. Home ~ an island, a refuge, a haven of love.” Earl Hamner

Yes, my home is Virginia and there for me are those precious memories of a haven of love.

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I Offer You Sacrifices of Joy

“…Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle.”  This really made me ponder many things that I had not thought to ponder in the past.  My favorite verse in the Bible has always been Psalm 27:13 and 14, “I would have lost heart, unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.  Wait on the Lord; be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart; wait, I say, on the Lord!”  However, I’ve always breezed right past verse 6 and offering “sacrifices of joy.”

How does one offer sacrifices of joy amidst heartache, grief, loneliness, illnesses and depression?  How can you be joyful when everything you’ve always known is collapsing around you and you feel helpless to do anything about it and prayer, at times, seems so futile?  How do you tell a young girl, who has aborted her baby, that there is HOPE and in the midst of her sin, and, yes, even her grief, there is forgiveness at the foot of the cross…only there can her shame and guilt be left and she can then, too, offer the sacrifices of joy?

Sacrifice is difficult…it is painfully difficult most of the time.  It is not for the faint of heart or the casual Christian because it requires surrender:  Surrender to one-self, control and surprisingly wallowing in the pains that keep us from the sacrifice.  Yes, wallowing…..sometimes we (I) am more comfortable with the difficulties that keep me from surrender and submission than we joy of our healing…difficulties that keep us from falling prostrate before God and crying out for forgiveness.  I find myself swimming in the “pool of wallowing …” OR not submersing in the Pool of Forgiveness…like the man in John 5 who, for 38 years, lived in his infirmity and never stepped into the Pool of Bethesda.  Then Jesus “comes” into his life and heals him.  He did not linger either…he did as Jesus said and picked up his bed and went home!  What an example of how we are to respond when Jesus moves in our lives!

However, sometimes we aren’t completely healed like this man are we?  Sometimes Jesus moves and our infirmity, as it were, is left intact…like Paul’s “thorn in the flesh.”  Jesus then begins to teach us how to persevere in them because HE needs to work through them.  He wants to use them for His glory.  So that we may, as it says in 2 Corinthians 2:4, “That we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves ARE comforted by God.”    Paul doesn’t say, “have been” comforted; but, “ARE!”  That is a hard lump to swallow for me.  Oh, the times I have cried out, “Why don’t you just remove my depression or my diabetes or my paralyzed stomach, God?  Lord, it would be much easier for ME to serve YOU, if these things were removed.  Don’t you want me to be free and in complete service?  Lord, why are you holding me back?”

However, this morning, when He began teaching me about the “sacrifices of joy,” I realized that experiencing joy and expressing joy when we don’t feel like it, is very difficult.  It is easy to offer up praise when there has been an answer to prayer or a miracle in our lives; but, what about when you have been admitted to the hospital for the eleventh time in a year?  How do you express joy and serve Him joyfully when you have lost your spouse, parent or child?  What is easy about expressing or experiencing joy when you have been diagnosed with an inoperable, untreatable cancer and your days on earth are numbered?  Does being joyful come easily when your home is in foreclosure and you do not know where you will find a home for your family?  How do you offer up the sacrifices of joy then?

In Psalm 27:1, David was facing his enemies; yet, he said, “Of whom shall I be afraid?”  David declared that he would only desire and seek to be “hidden in the secret of His tabernacle.”  He said that then he could offer the “sacrifices of joy.”

Offering sacrifices of joy is done without complaining and can only be offered through the perfect love of Jesus.  Once you have exchanged lordship over your own life and made Him Lord it will be made easier.  It will still be difficult, at times, but we have to CHOOSE to offer the sacrifices of JOY.  Then we can declare verses 14 and 13, with David …but only then.